I finished with my boyfriend of two years?

I am in my fortys and I have two daughters , Ive been seeing this man for two years and i do love him but I finished with hi because , when he drinks he sometimes becomes horrid verbally , he said He was only with me cos he felt sorry for me , and that he a good looking bloke and doesn't need another year of crap. basically he says my daughters don't like him but he does things so make them feel like that , like on xmas day I asked my daughter to come in the room to open some presents he asked her to get out the room. This is only the tip of the ice burg where problems are concerned and some of the stuff he said in the ped is now bothering me and was nasty and insensitive , i mean I take medication for depression but i I don't get depressed while taking it, so one day he called a depressive dyslexic . I'm worried about being on my own but don't need this either, i also feel bad about finish it , It makes me feel sick , sad and anxious . he keeps texting saying its like a bad dream pulling at my heart strings making me feel even worse . Any advice would be good